Nothing quite much like a lonely smoke.

Take in the quiet breeze, drops of light rain, and the warm air through your fingers.


And then.. BAM.
Throw yourself into company, and you are whole again!

Stop whining for what you don't have, and start finding it.

Lest you lose what you already have.
Les paul?
John Paul Jones?
John Bonham.

Looks like we can't possibly fuck up with friends right?
So let's marry each other, mate, and start families.
Nothing could go wrong right?
Till fatigue kicks in..

The boy was told 'be good and you will be lonely'.

So he left, with this terrible sinking pain in his chest.
He was left without the other.

He knew things were never going to be the same again.

This ground was unfamiliar.

yesterday

Yesterday, I went to run with my brother. He was doing for his self-training while I was doing my 2.4km test run. I'm glad that after the past few days of running, I am able to maintain a PASS grade for it. However, my timing is not good enough for even a Silver in IPPT. My brother told me that my physical condition is good and I'll definitely get a Silver once I'm in NS. I was touched at that moment, he told me about things to look out for in camp, based on his own experience. Even though he always suan me like a dog, he still treat me as his brother in heart LOL.

I admit that my willpower is fucking shitty, I always felt like giving up halfway even though I still could carry on physically. It's really 'Mind over power' and I believe it applies the same in NS. If you don't have the right mentality, you will be suffering every single day. I know that NS life is pretty shitty but I believe there is a good side of it too. In less than a week, I'll be a monk for a few months and my IC would be gone for almost 2 years. My life definitely changes the moment I stepped into Tekong, from a civilian to a soldier. It's kinda crazy for me as I would never expect myself to hold a gun, throw grenade etc.

Dreams are for those who sleep.

Should I just burn out?

You would like that, wouldn't you.


Ignorance is bliss.
Ignorance isn't bliss.
Stupidity is bliss.

Biggest Aim: SCS
I must get Silver for my next IPPT
It is not neccessary to pass BOC in BMT to go command sch
However, I must pass in BMT coz I don't want to fail in command sch
Low rope, and other obstacles, please, grant me the strength to clear them
I want to be physically fit and also COMBAT FIT

I hope my army life is memorable in future, I want to be proud of it!

Was it deliberate?

Where did you go?

Which turn did you take?
Why leave, when it's so easy just to stay?


Were you ever wanted?

Feelings.

Do yours gather when you tell it to, and fly away when you tell it to?

Your heart isn't even in it anymore.

Seeing yours isn't, i tug mine away..

Tug.